Untitled

I used avoid deep thought like an empty restaurant, 
not out of stupidity, 

but a canny resolve to be happy.  
Those days are over now.  
I quickly learned

the deeper thought is,
 the taller it becomes. 
As my young teenage life continues on 

it's pointless journey I ponder on how all this came to be.  
Life is always uncertain. 
No one knows what's in there. But now 

my life is everywhere, 
I would just like to breathe and sleep and get all the rest I could. 
I wake up at four in the morning some 

days just thinking about my thoughts and stare blankly into thin air. 
Not sure what I am looking at but I know for a fact I am in 

my own world. 
Those times I am just inside my head just thinking about what is ahead.

I am a boy raking through the ashes,
 a boy struggling to find 
embers of life in the bottom of a bottomless fireplace.